discombobulation ....

I am back!

I think there is some unspoken rule of blogging that you can only write entries every couple of weeks or so.  

I am breaking it. 

Take that. 

When I cannot feel

When my wounds don't heal

Lord I humbly kneel

Hidden in You

Lord, You are my life

So I don't mind to die

Just as long as I

Am hidden in You

If I could just sit with You a while

If You could just hold me 

Nothing could touch me

Though I am wounded 

Though I die

If I could just sit with You a while

I need You to hold me

Moment by moment til' forever passes by

When I know I've sinned

When I should have been

Crying out, my God,

And hidden in You

Lord, I need You now

More than I know how 

So I humbly bow

Hidden in You

Happenings....

*God is so good and is slowly but surely drawing me back to Himself and revealing more of His goodness to me. 

*Learning to learn more about myself and others.  I now carry a little 'personality' notebook with me and when I learn things about other's personalities, likes/dislikes, or love languages I can jot it down.  

*Trying to finish strong in a semester that I didn't even start strong.  Ha, oh the goodness of God. 

*Learning so much more about His UN-RELENTLESS love for me.  He just won't give up on me! 

*Falling harder than the first time.  (Thanks Barlowgirl for that word picture) 

*Learning to love and find joy in being disciplined and following 'rules'.  They aren't bad medicine - they are mercifully given to me so that I can be closer to Him and His presence.  

*Realizing how much of a words of affirmation person I am.  Trying to have a tough skin and soft heart.  

Anyways, I think that is all for now.  I am delaying the inevitable of studying :)  Again.  What was that I said about discipline?  Haha.  

Dreams...

So, I should be studying.  Instead I am taking a much needed break and writing about my hopes and dreams.  I just can't be quiet about them anymore.

I dream about going to Antarctica.  I want some place that is cold and secluded and that I can be alone with a penguin.  I want to find a little cave where I can shack up, just me a penguin and have a grand old time.  I think baby penguins are adorable and have watched parts of 'March of the Penguins' and I can't wait for it to be my turn.  I hear penguins like chocolate bars and I suspect they really like snickers so I will take a stockpile of snickers with me.  Just to warm up my little penguin's heart when the Antarctic cold might get to my penguin.  I dream of lots of joyous activities with my penguin, including sled rides, fort building, and mushing with our very own sled dogs.  I watched a movie about penguins once and learned a lot.  I learned that that have mating dances.  I hope this is how I find my little penguin.  

Dance, penguin, dance.