The Cross

So, lately I started a new journal of things that I love about the Cross and this is the latest entry. I hope it brings you as much joy as it does me!

"Jesus is the One to whom we cling past, present, and future.

When our past sins threaten to encompass us and to freeze us with guilt it is to His Cross we can run, hold on for dear life, lift up our feet, and truly leave those old sins on the ground where they can no longer touch us. Due to the Cross, they no longer have any hold over us. They are not our master and cannot hold us any longer.

Also, our present inadequacies hold no sway over us. The fact that we cannot be successful in any endeavor on our own is completely fine. It is no cause for shame, but rather boasting. There is no shame in having to thrust oneself upon the old rugged tree. It is in His strength alone that we can accomplish anything and we must abandon ourselves to that.

We also are not in control of the future. Our grapplings to understand or control what is ahead are completely inadequate. We hold no sway over what is to come. When the anxieties of that threaten to overwhelm us to the Cross we can cling. We can hold fast to the Truth that death and satan were conquered and now God has good plans for us.

I wrap my whole being around the solid rock that is the Cross. To allow myself to focus on anything else is to be overcome with anxiety. With reckless abandon I hold onto the One who has purchased all good things for me.

The inadequacies of the past, my incompetence to handle the present, and my inability to control the future all haunt me until on that hallowed ground I am able to surrender."

Death.

Seriously. What's the deal? SO many people that my friends and I are close to have passed away lately. Geesh.

All I can think of now is that death makes eternity so much more real.

Keep fighting because the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing to the glory that is to be revealed in us when Jesus returns.

And He will return.

Please be on His side.

I REALLY should journal more...

It would probably help avoid break down nights, such as tonight.

The consensus of tonight?

-The things facing me right now are hard. They are big. They are challenging.

-The God I serve is bigger. He wants to show Himself bigger than even a VERY large compilation of big things.

This God loves defeating armies with fewer men. He loves waiting for the last moment to provide finances for people to go overseas. Mainly, He loves His glory and those things bring Him glory.

He wants to be glorified in my life now and for me to have faith in Him that He is bigger than everything facing me.

Being vague is almost as fun as doing that other thing...

So, I am in a blogging mood. I am not sure how this is going to all work out, but you are going to get an entry. I am also in a very vague mood, so it will probably be a vague entry.

I had a girl ask me today what I have been learning lately in my walk with the Lord and the overarching theme of what I have been learning is to seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and everything else will be taken care of. This applies in so many arenas: future, dating, school, girls I am meeting with, etc.

Life is overwhelming for me right now. There are so so so so so so so so so so so so so SO many unknowns floating around in this cloud of fog we like to call the future. I am thankful I serve a God that is trustworthy with my life. A God who withholds nothing good from those whom He loves. A God who goes before all things and holds all things together.

Lord, may You help me to have a vision of You that will be the death of me. To count ALL things as rubbish in comparison to knowing You, precious King. Jesus, as all these unknowns are scary, please help me to fear and love and know you more. You are trustworthy and though I may have to give up my life and my fears hundreds of times each day, You are worth it.

Contentment in Jesus

*Is really hard sometimes
*Is worth fighting for and sacrificing for because it's so beautiful.

That's all I got.