Life

I have been realizing lately that frankly my walk with the Lord is not where it needs to be.  Let me tell you a little story.  Well, if you want to read it for yourself in the Word, read Hosea 2.  It's my story.  

After Ryan and I broke up things in my life were incredibly hard for about a year and a half.  Things with my family, things with him, things with school....everything seemed incredibly hard.  Well, of course I longed for comfort.  I asked for it so much so that God gave it to me (Be careful what you ask for, He might give it... Numbers 11).  The price of which I received that comfort though was very high.  I had to choose comfort over true fellowship with my King.  

Since then I have craved comfort so intensely.  Things in my life since then have been pretty calm, but in the midst of my comfort He helped me to realize that He was missing.  He who had provided the grain and wine that I so comfortably lived off of was not being praised.  In fact, I was committing adultery against my Gracious Provider.  

Thank the Lord that He has begun to woo me back into His presence.  I really am terrified of what life will look like for me in the next couple of months because I have been living such a predictable and comfortable life that the unknown of who He is scares me, but nothing else is more worthwhile. 

Your prayers in this time will be incredibly coveted as He refreshes me with His presence and tears down all the idols I have constructed in my life.  

A good passage to describe this time in my life:  Hosea 2 

A good song to describe this time in my life:  Welcome Home, Shawn Groves