Death.

Seriously. What's the deal? SO many people that my friends and I are close to have passed away lately. Geesh.

All I can think of now is that death makes eternity so much more real.

Keep fighting because the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing to the glory that is to be revealed in us when Jesus returns.

And He will return.

Please be on His side.

I REALLY should journal more...

It would probably help avoid break down nights, such as tonight.

The consensus of tonight?

-The things facing me right now are hard. They are big. They are challenging.

-The God I serve is bigger. He wants to show Himself bigger than even a VERY large compilation of big things.

This God loves defeating armies with fewer men. He loves waiting for the last moment to provide finances for people to go overseas. Mainly, He loves His glory and those things bring Him glory.

He wants to be glorified in my life now and for me to have faith in Him that He is bigger than everything facing me.

Being vague is almost as fun as doing that other thing...

So, I am in a blogging mood. I am not sure how this is going to all work out, but you are going to get an entry. I am also in a very vague mood, so it will probably be a vague entry.

I had a girl ask me today what I have been learning lately in my walk with the Lord and the overarching theme of what I have been learning is to seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and everything else will be taken care of. This applies in so many arenas: future, dating, school, girls I am meeting with, etc.

Life is overwhelming for me right now. There are so so so so so so so so so so so so so SO many unknowns floating around in this cloud of fog we like to call the future. I am thankful I serve a God that is trustworthy with my life. A God who withholds nothing good from those whom He loves. A God who goes before all things and holds all things together.

Lord, may You help me to have a vision of You that will be the death of me. To count ALL things as rubbish in comparison to knowing You, precious King. Jesus, as all these unknowns are scary, please help me to fear and love and know you more. You are trustworthy and though I may have to give up my life and my fears hundreds of times each day, You are worth it.

Contentment in Jesus

*Is really hard sometimes
*Is worth fighting for and sacrificing for because it's so beautiful.

That's all I got.

Silly songs with Larry: And all because I can't sleep.

These are all songs written while overseas. I don't know what it is about being overseas that makes you crazy and write crazy songs, but hope you enjoy:

Jioazi (a delicious Asian food) song (Creative title, eh?)

Jioazi, jioazi, jioazi
Hao hun chi food (Very delicious food)
I eat you when I'm hun e (very hungry)
And my stomach says you're good.

Jioazi, jioazi, jioazi
Wo ai ni til I die (I love you til' I die)
And when I leave Asia
Without you I will cry.

(And the last verse dedicated to the other KT on my team)

Jioazi, jioazi, jioazi
Filled with cabbage and with beans
Delicious out of my mind, just don't stand behind my behind.

Jioazi.

Chenglish Song.

Talk, very beautiful people tree.
Chenglish, you are the language for me.
Don't mention it, we sing Chenglish song for you
No problem, no extra cost, no thing, no thing but sing.

Chinese and English what a beautiful mix
You bring me joy my Chenglish fix
Better than coffee you fix me, no bandaid sticks on me like you
My chenglish fix.

Boys song

Boys are gross and weird
They smell and they have beards
They aren't very smart and they like to fart (or break your heart, depending on the mood you are in)
Boys are gross and weird

This next verse was written by guys, so don't blame me for it.

Boys are slow and dumb
They like to suck their thumb
They are low on grace and they punch you in the face
Boys are slow and dumb

And this verse, I wrote today

Men are spiritually strong
Boys they lead you along
Men protect your heart their own comfort they impart
So don't date boys, date only men
And remember Jesus is your perfect ten!

Um, yeah. Sillyness I know, but I love it. LOVE IT.